last night my heart broke a little.  i inquired with my daughter if she planned to tryout for cheerleading for her senior year.  she responded with a "YES!"  followed by this "even if i don't make it, i'll have the entire time spent practicing and trying out to do what i really love one more time!"

her joy is missing at this point she's broken and i can't fix it.

so many thoughts today....

one about truth.  who to believe.  what to believe. it can really be so overwhelming.  i'm mean i don't care who you are you've fibbed a time or two.  for me the big flaw with that is not owning it and/or denying it.  that is one i have difficulty forgetting.

opinions.  man oh man do opinions frighten people.  now my question is why?  what are you afraid of.  i suppose i become frightened of an opinion when there's damning truth rolled up in it.  that's certainly a bummer.  or if perhaps its one that could be harmful to many.  but to be frightened just because it's different from my own...well, i just think that's ignorant.

opinions....and similar ones at that.  it intrigues and concerns me when many people i speak to share in an opinion and feel stuck all at the same time.  where i live there are many fine attributes but like most places, small communities especially, we're not without our faults.  (contrary to what some in public positions would have you believe) many echo the sentiment that the one thing that is so good and draws so many to us is also the one area that could use the most improvement and/or serves as the progenitor for what ails us.  and most concur exactly what positions propagate the issues.  yet what would appear to me to be quite close to a majority, who are directly affected, feel stuck, helpless and without appeasement.  sad if you ask me.  sad, sickening, frustrating....the list goes on.  it's truly a bitter pill.  one that after 12 years has a trickle down affect that sends young ones out, never to look back.  sad.

well the good news is my son is clueless about last night's events, therefore i'm hoping he'll attend the class and there will be no fall out.  the bad news is....i seriously doubt that will be the case.  sure hope i'm wrong.

i will say i'm more and more thankful every day that my heavenly Father doesn't operate on the same principle that most people do.  i will suffer for my sin, not my child.

and for the sake of what my child wants in the future i edit/delete my comments because people who i purposefully do not follow or allow to see my page want to comment on my statements.  really!

it's the choices we make in life that set us apart.
friendships dissolve into acquaintances.
it's a fact of life.

perhaps what makes the transition easier is knowing your being true to yourself.

it must be exhausting not being able to be honest, truthful and forthwith at all times.

perhaps the saddest part of the process is knowing those you've cared for and called friend are making choices that leaves them behind.

it can be a painful reality at any age.

time to move on.