hellooo friday! from a chubby chick!

wow what a beautiful day! woke up alone this morning as all were away last night! Kate is touring our nations capitol. The bus ride there has been eventful as they experienced a flat tire early thursday morning after having traveled all night. She called to tell me they were on the road again AND she had left her phone charger at the burger king that they were at during the repair process. ugh! luckily i was able to locate a verizon store 2 blocks from her hotel and they are shipping over a charger for her. matt went home after school yesterday with grandma van ness. i called this morning to see if he wanted to go with me shopping, come home or what he wanted and without surprise he wanted to stay the day with them. i noticed on his facebook status that he had been farming with grandpa and grandma told me he'd been riding his 4-wheeler already this morning so i'm not surprised he's gonna spend the rest of the day.

awoke to a lot of sirens this morning. that's not a pleasant sound...you know someone's day/life is not going to be the same. on the up side it's beautiful out. today's high is suppose to be 74. ahhhhh.

i bought some new shoes yesterday with hope that they would ease the back/leg pain i experience while i'm working. i do think it was a bit more comfortable last night. being fat doesn't help ;P

Speaking of being fat...I'd like to tell the makers of fat clothing a few things. If ever there was an industry in need of HELP this one would be it. Issue #1 the models you're using to model the fashions you've designed ARE NOT FAT. they're bigger boned at best. i'm yet to see one with a stomach that sticks out farther than her boobs. and news flash...we chubby chicks usually don't cinch our clothing in the back to take up slack...there usually isn't much slack to work with. Issue #2 stripes are nice...how about making them vertical. we don't need to wear what appears to be fabric hula hoops! really...it's not a good look for anyone over a size 7. Issue #3 please please please learn how to make pants for a size 18. very few chubby chicks have a waist so it really isn't necessary for there to be one in the pants. perhaps you could use the toddler pant idea & have adjusters inside the waist band for those fortunate to be able to still find a waist that is in existence. the next pant problem is the length between the end of the zipper & the crotch. granted some women suffer from a sever front butt but i really don't feel they're the majority. where the additional room is needed is around the hips not down the hips. Issue #4 skinny jeans...hahaha! who are you fool'n. if your body has matured and exceeded size...13/14 "skinny jeans" just become "too tight shoved my fat into these jeans" jeans. not a good look. Issue #5 prints, jewels, colors...i've been made to feel like my only options are loud, obnoxious colors, prints, flowers (ick) that have all been bedazzeled. i'm large...what? you can't see me coming? you need a heads up from a polychromatic moving forsythia with jewels dripping form it's petals so that you don't bump into me? ugh!!!! the worst. Issue #6 see through fabric. hummmm really? you want to see it? perhaps is a secret diet method fat folk aren't aware of. i will say this, speaking only for myself...when i see another chubbys' chubbies exposed either through fabric or lack there of i pretty much loose my appetite. Issue #7 tops...now i'd think this one would be a no brainer. you're going over rolls...fabric gets used up to make it over those therefore more fabric is needed to get over all the rolls. longer shirts please & thank you.

well, that's it for me today. i've a swim suit to buy (interesting), packing to do and then it's off to work. final thought...i love my wonderful husband.

a good.....

A good....
Book:
Lock & Key
Wimpy kid series
13 little blue envelopes
Food:
Chuckwagon pizza! & bread stix
chicken parm w/ side of fettuccine (olive garden)
movie popcorn
day:
one filled with laughter & those you love & enjoy (the "enjoy" factor is important)
person: someone accepting you for all you are good/bad

Today is a GOOD day to make a difference, to start anew, to redefine the ending. Today is a Good day to like yourself, and be accepting of others. Today is a Good day to leave the past where it belongs. Today is a Good day to find the lesson that needed to be learned and start the learning process. Today is a Good day to be thankful for all the promises that have been given. Today is a Good day to accept those promises and to allow them to transform you. Today is a Good day for it is the day the Lord has made. Rejoice!

Well the sun is shining, Kate is on the side of the road (on their way to DC) with a flat tire on the bus, Matt is in school, taxes are mailed and Andy is getting ready to go back to Merriville until Friday night. I chuckled when I got the call from Kate telling me they were on the side of the road with a flat tire. I could hear the kids laughing and talking with not a care/concern in their voice. I asked her how long until it would be fixed, she immediately asked the closest adult and I could hear only the tone of his reply...ANNOYED! Perhaps this is a situation where the kids can teach the adults a thing or two. Flat tires are a part of life. Pump it up/repair it and go on.

There are so many Good things about life here. We have so many comforts that are man made not to mention the amazing goodness that God has created just for us! while we are here. From rapping birds (i swear the birds were rapping yesterday morning) to beautiful colors in our landscape & sky, the sun that warms us and should remind us of His love from above! I get bummed when others don't get it. It's one thing for a non believer to not fully grasp all that has been gifted to us but when a professed believer/follower succumbs to being blinded by THIS WORLD it saddens me. God is Good and we know that, should trust in that always, for He is good ALL THE TIME.

Now I've been down, frustrated, bummed - don't get me wrong but it's not an easy place to dwell when you get down to the basics. The simple stuff - the Good stuff. Push aside the worldly stuff that bogs one down. Find a way to enjoy the quiet, the breeze, the birds. If you find yourself agitated, sad, mad, lost - STOP, LOOK & LISTEN. There's unmistakable beauty around you. This is a Good day!

Make the decision to allow the Goodness into your life. Be it God given, or worldly find something Good and enjoy today!

venting...

I don't believe that it is necessary to be liked by all in this life. I actually feel it's rather impossible for that to even happen. I know I certainly don't like everyone. But am called to Love them based on my religious view. I've got to admit it would probably be tough for you to or anyone else to know I don't like you unless I openly tell you or tell others of my feelings and it gets back to you. And then there are those that I initially didn't care for and have come to like. You really just never know. How one person views you can vary greatly from how another does. Tonight was a frustrating night...to say the very least. I get so irritated with myself when I allow OTHERS to annoy me! I hate giving others that much power over me. Ironically, I still continue to be kind to these people. I've tried treating them as they do me....it just goes against what I believe. For one I'd say deep down there's goodness there; for the other I see nothing but deceit. The character traits exhibited are just not appealing to me at all. It's obvious to all they feel the same toward me...& I'm fine with that. What is also noticeable is their immaturity in dealing with someone they don't care for. You want to be treated like an adult - learn to behave like one~!

4/14

today she leaves for d.c.....well tonight actually. it'll be weird with out her around. i know she'll have an awesome time and i'm excited for her to get the opportunity to have the experience. funny how we get comfortable with having certain people around, husbands, kids, even our pets. something just seems a little off when they're not there. i'm excited to hear about her time and all the sights and to see the pictures she takes. they'll be leaving the school at 9pm tonight, driving all night & then will begin their sight seeing tomorrow. thursday & friday will be spent in a hotel. here's one of the aspects of my kid that i love...57 students are going, they were given the opportunity to sign up with friends for roommates, kate just kinda waited to see who needed a 4th. you see this is one of the aspects of my daughter that sets her apart from many teenage girls. she's not into being in a clique. she doesn't have a best friend. however, she is a good friend to many. that is an attribute that you just don't find in many people, especially girls. she figures...1) they all get to sight see in a group 2)there will be many to "hang" with and share laughs with and make memories with...'why limit myself to just one group' 3) she mentioned that she was friends with most going on the trip....why "pick".

i give thanks daily for just how well balanced my kid is turning out to be! so so blessed. pray for safety in travel and during they're sight seeing time.

my son is so similar to me in personality (eek) he's a good kid too i just feel like he's so much more secretive than his sister. (lol) i regret that i've not had the time with him that i've had with my daughter. kate & i have had so many talks about life, love & happiness. i feel that i've not had the chance to have those same conversations with matt and now feel like i should've. he only seems to come a way with snipits of what's been advised/said and at times i feel the meaning has gotten lost in translation. matt seems to get it "after" the fact. i just hope when he really 'gets it' it's not too late. i will say this kid has a heart of gold! if only he would listen to it more than the "voices in the hallway". the growing up has appeared to be a bit more challenging for matt than kate. all the ugliness for kate seemed to take place early on...when kids were more forgiving. matt's search for a place to belong has seemed to take place just in the past year. unfortunately the older kids get the less forgiving they can be. this summer is sure to bring about a lot of change...changes in friends, interest, puberty, not to mention he'll be off to jr. high in august. i pray for more time with him. i pray he'll feel a sense of security with who he is so that he can stand strong in his beliefs. i pray his heart will win out.

today is a beautiful day. high is to be in the 80's WOW! i ache all over, i probably need new shoes ...perhaps i should just go & get some. matt's supposed to come home for lunch today. it's a new thing for him. he says he likes the break away from "that place" lol God love him, he's just not a fan!

did i mention i love my kids and my husband....more importantly ...i enjoy them.

happy wednesday...take a moment and think about the attribute about someone close to you that makes you smile. you might even tell them!

whattaweek....

4/13 '10

This is one of those weeks that is anything but 'normal'. (whatever that is)

Sunday we celebrated 'lil Ikes 3rd birthday. So hard to believe he's 3 already. It was a fun time to see him with his friends and family. He really seems to love Uncle Andy. As we left the party I took mom back over to her house and broke the news to her about not being able to take her to her class reunion. I feel sick about not being able to take her myself but my family had just ordered and purchased tickets for our annual trip to the allstar BB game. She chose to be cutting in the manner which she received the news and let me know "she knew she should've had a 3rd child so that at least one would be able to care about her and tend to her." Par for the course of my life. It pretty much sums up my relationship with my mother from birth to today.

As we drove home from the party I had a migraine set in. It totally had me down until about 3 pm Monday. Thankfully I was able to take my KH girl to celebrate her birthday with a movie, The Diary of a Wimpy Kid. Cute movie and I think she really enjoyed it. Once home it dawned on me that NOW was the only time I had to take Kathryn to get her all she needed to be ready for her trip to D.C. She leaves Wednesday evening. So, back into Marion to get her prepared.

Tuesday (today) is starting out beautifully! Andy will not be home tonight. I'll be working and training on a new system at the old Chuckwagon. It's gonna be interesting! Matt has a project due tomorrow. Hopefully Kathryn will be helpful to him if he needs it.

As I mentioned earlier Kate leaves for DC tomorrow and will return early Sunday morning. Thankfully Andy is coming home to see her off as I will be at work. He will then return up north to finish out his week. It'll just be Matt & I. Then come Saturday morning Matthew & I will leave with our club 56 kids from church for the Great Wolf Lodge in Cincinnati for the weekend! I'm sure it'll be a fun time. Andy will be home alone!!!! whatever will he do! I think I'm looking most forward to Sunday evening as we'll all be back together. YEA!

It'll be a week of trust...trusting others to care for my daughter, trusting my son to be responsible when he's home alone, praying for travel mercies for both Kate & Andy and the youth group...so much to give to God. I try to not worry...I know my God can handle it all.

So here's to a crazy week...to coming & going, and to coming home again. I do look forward to the coming home part!