same scenario, different situation. caring, inquiring...i really need to learn how to do those two things without being heard. without involving others. without anyone knowing. even conversations with myself get overheard. i don't like censorship. i like expression. i am not void of feeling. i care too much. judge me, criticize me, do whatever to me...in an attempt to change me...you will fail. someone much larger than you or i created me. He is still working on me. He is who i will allow to judge me. not you...for you are no better than i. with His help i will be the best i can be. and because of my devotion to Him, i will suffer here. so be it. i will continue to rejoice, reach out, love and build relationships.