well it's been quite the summer thus far!  i'll do a quick recap of events up til now and then move on to a little something else.

kat had toncils & adenoids out, bled twice! SCARY, matthew went to honduras, andy fell off the roof (he's ok!  PTL), the amboy house is almost done!  oh so close!  WE ARE BUYING THE OTHER ONE!  IT'S OFF MARKET BUT IS OURS UPON SELLING ONE OF OUR OWN!!!!  again, PTL!  we've had multiple gatherings with friends, sweltering hot heat, kokomo beach with out of state friends, the annual cookout at moms.... :( , and I turned 46!  whew....and that's all just the first month of summer break.

here it is july 11 and in just over a month school will be back in session!  until then VBS, work, cheer practice, cheer camp, cheer competition, all have yet to happen!  whew...just thinking about it.  andy leaves for san antonio for a few days next week for work, i do miss him when he's gone.  so much has happened and yet there's still so much to do.

this summer has been exceptionally hot, but i'm praising the Lord because it's not been humid!  woo hoo!  If all goes according to my plan...provided it's in line with my Gods plan then we will be planning on moving end of september first of october!  of course i'll appreciate prayers but fully understand that  God has this all under control, and for that i'm thankful and faithful.

mom has been on my mind a lot this month.  for a year ago she was still with us.  we've talked, or rather i've talked and i'm certain she's listened.  she was always a good listener.  (and talker lol)

fathers day came and went.  i didn't call my dad.  i did send him a card though.  i told him i loved him.  i've realized a couple of things, 1) no matter the situation, he should hear it from ME that i love and care.  2) no matter the situation, he's my dad and i'm his daughter...even if i'm the only one who acknowledges that.  ....i don't really know where it went wrong.  i'm not even sure if knowing would help the situation, so i pray.

this growing older thing is kinda weird, and enjoyable all at the same time.  i do however find my self getting anxious at times about the simplest of things.  some scare me, some confuse me and others calm me.  you know how as time passes and one day you pause and take a look at your surroundings and your life and all the blessings, messes, and blessings!  i tend to do that often.  i like to hit pause.  but i have to admit there are those times when in doing so i get scared, or apprehensive.  i know that at some point those who are on this journey with me, making it special and enjoyable will someday ...not be.  that's when i get scare.  it's in this moment of feeling that i want to recoil and not love.  can you imagine.?!  i get scared of loving.  not being loved doesn't scare me.  but i find myself afraid to love.  why?  the only conclusion i can come up with is that in doing so, in not loving....it'll be easier when it's time to let go.

and then i realize that all that is bunk!  and i'm back to being me.

had lunch today with a young lady who i adore!  she's off to college in the fall and as many of you know i truly feel this is one of the most exciting times in a persons life.  any hoo, we were talking about being real v. being fake.  in our convo it was questioned how to act toward someone who you didn't much care for.  (i feel like i can be a pro at this!)  this has been a source of concern for me for some time.  and here's my conclusion.  if you're a nice person and being nice to others is important to you then be nice.  be you.  be to them how you'd want someone, anyone, to be to you.  if you can manage that then there's nothing fake about your approach.  fake is when you're anything other than yourself!  your feelings can be less than positive, but there are times when being ourself means putting feelings aside and just being.

well, that's the perspective that works for me any way.  and it's what i'll go with until i change and become mean or something.  ;)  *confession:  i do have a mean streak, i have to arm wrestle it so that i don't allow it to define me.  

well, that's about it for now.  i'm at church blogging, as our computer is in a funk.  thus the delayed post.  wishing you all well, thanks for reading....feel free to share your thoughts with me.

blessings,
kel