there's just no pleasing some people and over time my desire to do so diminishes.

as this happens to me i wonder what Jesus' position would be when dealing with some folk. for i've been kind, used kind words, have traded curiosity for judgement and yet i am approaching exhaustion.  my psyche is taking a beating and i wonder how much longer must i remain in the proverbial boxing ring?

it's as if satan has moved away from me directly and is taking the pot shots at me via another?  you know... through one who perhaps is less likely to call on His name as the ugliness of this world sets in. and so i reflect on myself...am i a part of the ugliness? if so Father forgive me and wash it away for i do not want any part of that to be what i put out for it is not reflective of You.

so i will be prayerful.  i will take comfort in knowing this is part of a plan....a plan that is perfect.

and i will continue to be me....a work in progress.