jaded....

Jaded...that pretty much sums me up as of late.  Not sure of the meaning....hit up Dictionary.com & check it out.  I must admit it's not my choice of adjectives.  But it seems to be most accurate for the moment.

In all honesty it's probably the exact opposite of how I feel 99.9% of the time.  I'm not sure if it's PMS or PUBLIC or IDIOTS or all of the above that has me dwelling in a sub-par state but whatever it is it seems to have a hold on me.  My saving grace....God & His path for me and my dreams. 

My prayer list is long and even somewhat selfish.  There are so many people I know, friends & family dealing with the "C" word that I would appreciate prayers for each of them as they go through this journey and for their families.  I have friends who I long for them to know Christ....more over to WANT to know Christ, prayers for them and for me that I might be the proper witness.  For my children that they make good choices in all they do and that a fire might be lit inside of them driving them toward a passion all the while bringing glory to God.  For my family and all of the "stuff" ...literally we have to go through and deal with.  All the legalese of mom's passing, her home & stuff, an eventual auction, AND our current homes, the remodeling on both of them and PRAYERS for a buyer!!! 

I feel as though time is fleeting by and I'm stuck....ugh!  Prayers for me too I guess.  Difficult to ask for as I'm not really suffering, we have home(s), full pantry & refrigerator, jobs, and health, friends, etc....  In short, I'm truly blessed yet feel like I need ......need what?  I don't know.....other than to move!